About me
My name is MohamedEkbal I was born on December 12th, 2008. I'm from Syria, from Idlib, from a small town called Al-Tih.
I'm not gonna lie, I was interested in most of my hobbies from a very young age, but never truly engaged with them until post-2020. I loved drawing since I was a child, but I really rarely drew anything. And even when I did, it was mostly just tracing and copying other people's art. Not actually drawing anything. I always wanted to learn how to draw properly, I just never did.
I've been a YouTuber since 2018, since I was 9 years old. But my idea of YouTube was really childish. I just wanted to make gaming videos like the people I watched, even though I only had an iPad.
Most of my videos were about Asphalt 8. Honestly, Asphalt 8 was like my greatest savior at the time. I uploaded once or twice a year, and I didn't really care as much as I made it seem that I did.
Or maybe Among us (before it got popular). I had a second channel for animation but I only made 2 videos: one was a long story time video (not that much animation rather just still drawings on the screen). The other was a less than a minute squid game meme (I actually animated my head exploding… was kinda proud of it).
I was always into horror, creepy stuff, creepy pasta, fake lost cartoon episodes, indie games, story-driven games. Things like Five Nights at Freddy's, DDLC. I liked games that felt weird and interesting to watch not just fun to play. I just wasn't making content about what I actually liked.
Music was kind of the same. As a kid, I was just listening to whatever was around me. That was more like 2018 and earlier. But around 2019 to 2022, I actually started getting into music properly. I got really obsessed with the 70s and 80s. Artists like Michael Jackson and Daft Punk, that whole cool fun disco vibe. Chill dreamy stuff like The Mild High Club or the rare occasions. That type of music really shaped how I saw things at the time: cool, fun but also calm.
Then 2023 happened. That was easily the best year of my life. After a few failed channels, I finally started my current one. At first, it wasn't that different. Still gaming videos. But after my first few uploads, I realized something is not right. I am not cut out to make gaming videos. I wouldn't watch my gaming videos myself. Why would I expect people to watch them? So I switched. I started making video essays, based on what I actually watched. And for the first time, I loved my content. I never did before. I tried to make it seem like I did, but not really. Now? I love my content DEARLY!
Drawing went through the same shift. In late 2022, I completely ditched the rubber hose, cutesy style I was obsessed with and went to the opposite. Make everything as sharp, edgy, and rugged as possible. I don't know what happened…Probably puberty. But it felt like the beginning of a character change. I was always the overly nice person growing up. More than I should have. And something at the time just started breaking that.
Music changed too. I went from that 70s and 80s fun disco and dreamy chill music to something way more aggressive. Re-Discovering Slipknot felt like a punch in the face. From there, everything expanded. Metal, heavier sounds, darker tones. It matched exactly how I was changing. It was like my taste finally caught up with my personality. 2023 was the year everything clicked. My interests, my personality, even my grades. It felt like I finally became myself.
And then 2024 was the complete opposite. My academic level dropped HARD! Like, the worst it has ever been. All my hobbies slowed down, I made only two videos that year (somehow it was the year my channel peaked like never again). It felt like I lost that version of myself I just got in 2023 and couldn't get it back. I can remember 3 good things from 2024: The liberation of my country, meeting my current best friend — both happened on the same December day, and finally getting into Metallica.
Since then, it's been… weird. The first half of 2025 wasn't great. Not as bad as 2024, but still bad. The second half, though, was actually amazing. Not 2023 level, but still amazing. And 2026 so far just feels neutral. Quiet. Kind of empty. Like I'm just waiting for something to happen again.
Right now, I'm still obsessed with creating. Drawing, making videos, learning guitar. I've always wanted to do these things, and now I actually do them. But at the same time, I can't focus on anything else. I could have an exam the next day and still ignore it just because I got an idea I like.
I don't really know what I want to do with my life. I know I don't want something like medicine. I know I want something creative. But I also don't want to turn the things I love into something I'm forced to do every day. So yeah… I don't really have a clean answer yet.
I just know that 2023 changed me, 2024 broke something, and everything after that has just been me trying to figure it out again.